Over the last few days, things have finally become clear to me concerning school. I was feeling so overwhelmed and anxious for awhile. I am taking two child development classes and both have projects due within the next couple of weeks. One project has four parts to it and I just wanted to back out. But I am not going to quit.
I have been meditating mostly on the verse, “Be still, and know that I am God. I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth!” (Psalm 46:10). Mostly it’s the first half that gets the most attention but it rather peaceful to know the second half. I’ll be honest. Amidst all of the busyness going on, I have been thinking more about the first part. It’s so true. One day, I stopped what I was doing and just sat on my bed in total silence. Spending time in the quiet really helped.
Ever since that time, I have been feeling more peaceful and my mind seems a bit clearer. For the past few weeks, I’ve noticed how often I forgot things and how I have a hard time comprehending even simple instructions. I think that is a side effect from the chemo. Before, I could skim through instructions to do something and do the project. Now, I have to carefully read the words probably a few times before understanding it. I think because my teachers have broken down the instructions and I have been able to understand better what they are asking for, the projects don’t seem that bad to do anymore. I am looking forward to doing them but more for getting it over with. 🙂
So, when I feel most stressed and overwhelmed, I will try to remind myself to be still. Turn off the music, turn off the tv, put the phone down, and resist the urge to organize/clean! If doing one or all of these is hard, I usually just stand where I am and take a deep breath. I take maybe about 30 seconds to a minute to clear my head. This has been working for me at my job. It restrains me from focusing too much on the problem and instead, focus on a solution.
Life can get quite crazy and chaotic but taking a moment to be still before the Lord can give you a moment to breathe. Take that time to pray and meditate on who He is. I can’t guarantee life will suddenly get much better but with Jesus, the storm is certainly possible to get through.